Monday, September 6, 2010

Did I REALLY Just Say That??

(Kenzie looks around)

How many people heard my alter-ego on Blog Talk Radio last week?

(At least two people raise their hands)

That was a classic example of being over-confident about my topic, and thinking I knew what I would say. Ever have a conversation with someone and all of a sudden your brain is yelling, 'WTF??? That's NOT what I told you to say! SHUT UP! NOW!"

But the mouth keeps going...and suddenly the host is cutting you off because there's only one minute left in your allotted time frame!

The last time I was on BTR, I started out nervous, but eventually calmed down and picked what I thought was a tame excerpt to read. Except in the middle of it, I came upon the words 'cock' and 'pussy' and since a) it was nearly 3pm in the afternoon and b) I was talking to a MALE HOST, and c) I'm not even remotely comfortable saying those words, much less typing them, I tried to rush through it as soon as possible. And afterward, mentioned maybe the next time he has me on, we should do it at ten o'clock at night, in the event of another X-rated moment!

I've had head-slap moments on chat loops, when I've gushed over one author's books too much and afterward, thought I inadvertently insulted someone. I've expressed my opinion and been heavily criticized for what I read. Or I've accidentally interrupted a chat in order to promote myself.

I'll admit, I've used this space to deliberately blast someone for bad behavior (nope, not telling you the post or who it's directed at!) and I've vented my feelings toward a certain new divorcee friend in the throes of a mid-life crisis. That's okay; I've not posted any names and she doesn't read blogs anyway. Hell, I don't even think she reads the sample excerpts I've sent her the past year, or that she'll read any of my stuff until I get that million-dollar advance from NY. (Like THAT will ever happen...snort!)

But anyway, I've said it before; my skin has grown quite thick since embarking on this publishing venture. I've been bruised, but I heal quickly.

And I have plenty of online friends who offer cyber hugs when I'm down!


Mia Watts said...

It happens to the best of us. You're doing fine. :)

Also, I do that thing where I'm talking and my own brain gets bored. So I start thinking about other things while my mouth is trying to finish it's thought on the first topic. Then my brain's like, "woops, that guy looks confused, better pay attention and make this final statement believable." Only to end with something lame and off topic.

I hate that.

Linda Kage said...

I haven't noticed you making any major taboos. Then again, I'm usually too worried about not trying to make my own, always thinking "Oh, crap. That's going to get me into trouble" or "Yep, shouldn't have said that," or "Yikes, they probably took that way different than I meant."

I say, more power to you. You actually have the guts to get on BTR. I'm awed.